Help me figure this out cuz my anxiety from not doing enough is gonna eat me!!

So I’m a makeup artist who started last year around September and I know that i am a beginner but dude i wanna do something i wanna expand my reach, i create some creative content and yk these courses are so expensive that i cant blindly invest in these model shoots they’re hella expensive. Atleast for now i wanna do something different, do you guys have something in your mind? Help me out because when i see people out there posting stuff getting clients idk i just feel disappointed in myself for not doing enough to reach that point..